My Heart cant Maintain the Pain

Hello reader,

im back aqain with another blog... so i thought about it, and i decided to post a little something i wrote.

enjoy .

My Heart cant Maintain the Pain

i dont even know what happen to 'us'.

i remember you was once the qirl i could TRUST...

that type of love, wasnt mistaken for Lust....

me and you ? qirl, that was a Must !

i wish we can go back in the past,

so i can do whatever in my power to make us LAST...

i think of everthing we did, and how we had such a blast..

damn i wish we can just go back, but times movinq forward too fast,

but in my heart, forver it shall last..

dont think i had ever forgotten you, cus till this day, in my mind you still remain...

no matter how hard i try, i just cant restrain

your LOVE is just want i want to re-gain

but take it easy qirl, i will take the blame.

i honesly miss you, and wanna run, hug and kiss you

i remember you and i was just so blissfuL

but being in this relationship qirl, is just too riskfuL

my heart cant maintain the pain

after all this rain, i stood soo tall

even though every now and then i may fall

but i know i will be okay after all

its really a shame how we turned out to be

it hurts in Fact, cus i truly believed we was ment to be

my love for you was deeper than the blue sea

we know we coulda made it bigger than the trees

you and i both know, thats how it should really be

i relax & sit & think

how could this be ?

im use to you being right beside me

waking up in the morning to your beautifuL face

stareing into your eyes, was such a peacefuL place

all these memories could never be replaced

and no matta how hard i try, they could never be erased.

-signed. Mariah Ashlee

Photos of MyPast

something i made a while back.

Okay ; soo all that uve seen/read above was done by a STRONGbeautiful annoying liloo 16 yrOLD girl named mariah ashlee decosta. Ihts something she actually worked hard on and posted on her website. she asked me to look aht iht, im usually mean buht i desided not to be .. wasnt enything i would of excepted. HONESTLY, ithought iht was gunna be an entriee of truth that was gunna make me upset.

& believe iht or not, iht landed up beginning something that means aLot to me.

just as much as iht means to her ..

lilo fucker always finds a way to get me talking to her

ugh ihf she wasnt in texas i would strangle her .

ughhhhhhhhhhh TEXAS. i fucking hate you ; i hope you fall off the map

buht enyways .. i forgot whhat i was gunna say.

oo oo ohh yeah, after seeing that i asked her to logg into mine & post iht here.

M DeCosta: finished babyqirl

M DeCosta: go take a peek

K Caban: okaay hangg on i was playing wf de previous one

M DeCosta: kk babe.

M DeCosta: BREAKING NEWS

M DeCosta: iloveyouxO719O8

K Caban: lmfaoo stupid .

i would like to share iht with my readers

iht may make some people sick, angery, laugh, smile

who knows?

you deff. noe someones probly gunna try & do something to make me madd or get back at me fo this since iht has to do wf an ex buht you know what .. OH WELL.

maturity needed much?

iht wasnt done on purpose, although i dont need to explain myself.

buht you know something, iht happens to be the BEST thing ive seen in such a long time that i know came from the heart

Mariah Ashlee Decosta, i want you to know .. i appreciate this more than enything :-*

M DeCosta: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

M DeCosta: i just got done readinq that as soon as you wrote to me; i was on the last word

M DeCosta: :') thank you soo much

M DeCosta: i fuckinq love you

M DeCosta: although i dnt like the ' texas fall off the map part' lmfao cus then i would be OUTTA HEA

M DeCosta: but that was cute, i was dyinq

M DeCosta: but thank you, i feel appricated

M DeCosta: that was soo cute....

K Caban: lmfaooo. i was soo thinking about that when i rote that

K Caban: im like buht wait.. dat means riah will fall off

K  Caban: shruggs shoulders .. o well :D

  M DeCosta (2:09:36 AM): lfmaoooooooooooooooooooooo

M DeCosta (2:09:41 AM): YOU FUCKIN LILO BITCH

M DeCosta(2:09:47 AM): thats soo messed up

M DeCosta (2:09:49 AM): makes me sad

M DeCosta (2:09:55 AM): SAY SORRY

M DeCosta (2:09:59 AM): i mean it !

K Caban (2:17:15 AM): sorry........................

i was editing my entry LMFAO ! 

 

 

omg! WDF? YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS??

ihf texas falls off de MAP ............. RIAH DOES TOO !!

MOMENT OF SILENCE ..

SHOCKED MOMENT ..

BUSTS OUT LAUGHING ..

LMFAO!

OH WELL ..

.. BUHBYE RIAH :D

Blame de ADHD ; hehe.

soo ihts 1134pm ; and i just finish having the most amazing helpful convo ever .
iht happen to be wf someone i havnt been getting along wf for years now;
alot of differnces, agruements, disagreements, awlful things said, anger etc.
This person happens to be Teresa .

Kay: Shimmy?

mee: yess shabbaaa

Kay: Imissyou alottt

Kay: Are you okay?

mee: i miss youu too

mee: and ehh not really ..

mee: buht now i feel alilo bettuh

mee: actually cus of teresaa

Kay: what's wronq

mee: me and her hadd a good talk

mee: she listeneed

mee: n let me vent

mee: iht was kool

Kay: Whoaa lol

mee: i knooooooooooooooooooooo

mee: lmfao

Kay: That's whatsup thouu

Kay: :-D

 
Lol i know thee people who know me and know who she is , is probly staring wf their mouth droped. Lol i aint gunna liee iht got me giggling and suprised.
buht hey, time passes people change .. sometimes they dont buht thats when you change yourself or atleast what you can to make the situtation bettuh. so i learned from my brother Alex montty .. another person i really wasnt close to the past years of growing up. Yes Alex i doo actually listen and learn . i dont block you out even though sometimes i do try and act like i am.
- - enyways back to the purpose of me riting aht this time of nite.
i hadd a ruff nite , dont wanna get into iht buht i was pissed off royally once again...

... umm BRB mom needs thee computer .

Okayyyyyyy 1248 BACK !

[ Pictures GO HERE .. buht ill doo dhat later ]

buht ayee im sooooo soo sooo sorry, hang on okayy? ill be rite back !

having a convo with dhe BIGGEST pain in my ass .. Mariah Ashlee Decosta

............................................

mmmkaayyy ; BACK. & since you waited soooo patiently i got something that might make your day or night .. & ihf iht dont you know what you lilo fxcker idk what too tell you then !! cus iht got me dieing :p

M DeCosta: you feel better ?

K Caban: ehh no

K Caban: i gotta take a sheit

M DeCosta: "(

M DeCosta x3: can you take aim with you ?

M DeCosta: or is it not portable ?

M DeCosta: cus if you want , i can go sit on my tub, and talk to you on aim while you shit

K Caban:

K Caban: u fxcking bitch

K Caban: u made me cry

K Caban: im not even supose to be talking to u

K Caban: buhttthat was the cutest sweeetest heartmelting/ breaking stupidest thing i ever heard you fxcking jerk !

M DeCosta: sorry babe, i didnt wanna make yo cry, just make you feel better

M DeCosta: you*

M DeCosta: hehe. aww ... sorry ?

M DeCosta: :-*

K Caban: no. get out my faceeeeee -___-

M DeCosta: ( all up in ya qrill ) ^_^

K Caban: ohh my goddd !

K Caban: mariah ashlee decostaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

M DeCosta: babeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

K Caban: (Shocked expression)

K Caban: yeooooooo

M DeCosta: why the shocked expression sunshine ?

K Caban: ngdjgndslfnsdflnsf !!!!

K Caban: Did you brush your teeth today ?

M DeCosta: yes

M DeCosta: i swear on my grandma

M DeCosta:

M DeCosta: BUT !

M DeCosta: i didnt use mouth wash -_-

M DeCosta: AND

M DeCosta: i didnt do it tonight

M DeCosta: BUT

M DeCosta: i did it in the AM

M DeCosta: soo its okay to kiss me

K Caban: Lmao !

i wasnt foreal .. ihts just you were all up in my gril and i thought i was smellingsomething buht the mouth wash explains iht all

M DeCosta: lfmaoooooooo

M DeCosta: ooh noo, that musta been ya upper lip den

K Caban: Lmfaooooooooooooo

M DeCosta: soo what you gotta boyfriend or something now ?

M DeCosta: whos this dude all up in ya icon and shit

K Caban: okay now that we are on this subject..

oneee that upper lip thing .. what ever iht is , is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo OLD

twooo whoooo ever madee the damn thing up the so called joke or w.e is plain and simplee fxcking STUPID andd likee dumbb DRY. i mean drier than yaa jokes be aht times..

and third of all IHT DONT FXCKING MAKE SENSE LIKE COMON UR UPPER LIPPPPPP FACES DOWN HOW THE FXCK YOU GUNNA SMELL DE MOTHER FUCKER?! i mean the bottom lip will make a lilo more sense buht top ? likee comon could the nigger not think of something bettuh?

and what makes iht worsee is you come n try and usee iht on mee !

K Caban: niggguh ! mee boyfriendd?! dudeee dhts some aim dudeeee Letting you noee you need some Mist for that breath of yours

K Caban: you see him ? hes likee BAMMMMMMMMMMMM! youuuu needddd this

M DeCosta x3 (11:43:59 PM): lmfaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

K Caban: lmfaaoooo !

K Caban: .. (batts eyes aht youuu .)

M DeCosta x3 (11:45:55 PM): okay, ONE; that joke is actuly funny.... and TWO; upper lip still stinks THREE; they use the upper lip and not the bottom lip because its closer to ya nose soo there for you can smell that bad boy even better than what you you could smell ya botton lip... FOUR, your the one that needs it since its all up in ya icon and shit...

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:13 PM): FIVE, hes like BAM ! kalina, i suqqest you go pick up a pack

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:20 PM): ya upper lip is KNOCKING

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:27 PM): you would think someones at the door

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:32 PM): ahahahahaha

K Caban: ... baby girl ..

K Caban: STOP

K Caban: -_____-

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:43 PM): -_-

K Caban: that was soo DRY

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:50 PM): you got a big ass face

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:52 PM): -_________-

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:55 PM): -_-

M DeCosta x3 (11:46:58 PM): you, me

K Caban: i think ihts about time youu meet up wf that mouthwash

M DeCosta x3 (11:47:07 PM): lmfao.. iight, iight

M DeCosta x3 (11:47:09 PM): i got you

M DeCosta x3 (11:47:10 PM): brb

K Caban: Lmaooo ! ight .



242; okay so before i was trown off i was talking about

Ina - i wanted you

 

Finally

well hello there !
i know your proby thinking, what kind of blogger are you ?
ihts been how long since ya last entry? ..
well ihf you read correctly im not soo into this whole shiet;
buht iono who cares, im BORED once again.

iht took me about
1,000 attempts to guess and remeber my URL.
thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !!
1,000 more to figure out which email i use to log in.
1,000 attempts to figure out what my passwords were for ech email.
1,000 deep breaths ..
1,000 resets ..
then FiNALLY i got iht.
[ Pauses, takes deep breath & releases .. ]
( giggles ) dudee, iM suchhhh a smartcookie (cheeses)


buht soo yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..
before i desided to do this;
- i took a shower and never made
iht to my room to get dressed.
therefor i been sitting in my
towel for the past ehh, maybe
TWO HOURS! so yeah
getting dressed would be a
great idea huh?
- bettuh call my tatey girl
before she jumps threw the
computer and strangles me !
pshh lemme tell you dhat girl
is CRAZY; buht then again
dhats why shes my MainSqueeze.
Bendito shes been waiting
since i got in this chair 2
hours ago.
Clenchs JAW .. aggervation is arriving
- my mother has said my name
about 7 times already ..
i think she wants me to go
cuddle wf her cus i heard her
say something about can she
have 30 mins atleast of my
timee.
i hope dhat goes well im
really not in the mood to end
up arguing wf her.
see de thing is me and her is
soo much alike whether we want
to addmit iht or not.
iono (shruggs shoulders)
BBL or um yeahh whenever :D

Me Blogger ?

Okay, so im truely here asking myself WTF am i doing ..
Writing to a world who probly doesnt take the time to actually read ;
Because taking de time is something alot of people DONT do.
Buht i mean who cares rite ? ..

This whole Blogging , twittering , gimbo gabo aint really my thing i mean ,
im starting too not even be able to keep up wf MYSPACE .
guess i just found bettuh things in Life den the intrenet, [Which can be very intresting aht times]

Always said i would nevuh become a member of not one more thing that comes out ,
cus too me they just all de same .. buht see what had happen was BORDOM smacked me
DUM DUM DUMMMMM !
next thing i know im thinking about making one of these things.
soo i turn to someone who pissed me off ROYALY ;
Shanelle Ariana Young Cantey .
so Much fo incouraging me huh ? ..
Always got something smart to say Shmaaaaaaa !!
buht if i was to turn to someone else to "baby me'' or too talk to SHE FLiPS .
so truth, what made me make my desicion was her smart remark ;
just sooo i can come on here and B i T C H about her :)

& yes, im sure you know who that Shanelle girl is since ihts been made clear of our History . i mean how cant you this is a nosey ass world we are Living in. Either way i Love her Bitchass